Hiding.

That simple question holds me still
An answer I've yet to reveal
The knowledge that I will not seek
The pains that bring me to the brink

You wonder why I here now stand
Before you, as this scared woman
You wonder why I'll let you see
Fear, that forced me to believe
That everything inside me's foul
And I am only headed down

In honesty, I've no response
To admit would reveal my curse
The curse that brings the other out
Which traps me in this home of doubt
The curse that began years ago
Reminded by the subtler show
The trials that I lately faced
Nudged by you, repression traced

I know I'm slipping down and back
But part retains a hopeful stance
And in your eyes, though I'm hiding
I'm not hiding from everything
Now.