We hold our arms out to the ones who show us when they're weaker
But bear the cross and bow our heads and call them our defeaters.
Our weakness shines beyond the stars to those that hold our chains
And every moment that you stir they tighten up the reins.
Your death would be the love for me that never set you free.
My death would be the love for you that never let me be.
As chains we bear are fastened to the pole they set on fire
We let ourselves give in to every held back true desire.

My sheets are stained with the love for you I held behind my eyes.
The pillow I encase them in won't hide me from your lies.
The murderer is nothing but the things you never did.
And I'd be such a fool were I to fall for you again.

I'm no alibi for creatures of the dark
I'm no politician searching for a faster course
I'm no friend of yours who waits to hear your plea
I speak as true as possible, and wait until you see.

I'm not going to celebrate the pains that you went through
I'm not going to expect anything better from you
I'm no girl that waits until your day is up
I'll hear what little you've to say; if not I'll give you up.

Fly away

I see you've found your wings again

And maybe soon we'll fly

But right now you need to hold on

You're not ready to die.

Games

I wasn't aware my heart was a game

Or my mind and my memories pieces to play

I wasn't aware you could win me, or try

And wasn't quite sure of who told you this lie

I'm not playing poker

I'm not playing catch

I won't be won over

I won't let you in

I won't keep you inside the mind that I've lost

Because I'm still boarding it up from this host.

Defense.

I swear you're feeding on temptation

Finding walls you'd love to burn

And you're breaking into heaven

Where my heart has yet to learn

You're fighting my defenses

And you're closer every day

But the saddest part about it

Is the things I'll never say

Not yet.

batter.

I've been at bat, I'm striking out

You're in the hut having a laugh

You've never struck out once in life

But to this I've been familiarized.

It's funny, how you're laughing now

But when we lose,

I'll laugh out last.

Fire

I burn them down and watch them reassemble.

Guess there's magic in these fingers yet.

For just one second, we all pretend

they were happy this way before.

My magic's made of fire,

and I'm destroying all in my way.

There's no point in pretending any of it was okay.

Fights

This splinter is your imperfection,

stuck beneath my skin.

I could sand you in a second

if your wood was worth the risk.

Hence, I'll toss you in the fire

and I'll watch the flames consume

cause I'd much rather start over

than to fight again with you.

‎I keep you posted in my mind

until I see that Valentine

we left behind at mother's wake

and hold myself up to the stake.

I see you're worried I've lost it now

but I am finding out.

If I find myself right here,

I may one day again be dear,

but hold apart the hands we touched

I'll hold another if we've got luck."

Iron-clad heroes.

I am led by rules and devastation, for I am beneath the lowest of creation.

And all these men, these women, these iron-clad heroes fall before me in one night, except one.

This one is my toughest oponent, for he will not fall.

Nor shall I enter the mind and destroy from within, for this one wears but one bit of armor, his helmet.

And I am thrashing against the metal, but he is warding me away with a single thought,
a single thought I've yet to hear, a mystery that keeps my struggling, at bay.

This thought that could destroy the very fabrics of my false reality,

for it is etched in the eyes that shine behind the metal grate.

The truth that I won't admit, can't admit.

The truth that, it's all a lie.

Puppet.

Remove me from the influence
Of those who've left before
And hand to me the strings of those
Who've walked me into walls
And let me exist in this place
Of plastic and of strings
And face a smile I control
And believe I am free.

Time.

If I were talented as she,
I'd draw you in the sun
Instead I weave a web of words
You've yet to open up
And strings are stuck together
As the pages of our time
And ink has run them over
Water wrinkles them, and dries.
You spent your days pretending
That you understood the lot
And wasted all my memories
On things too soon forgot
I'd weave another web of tales
If you could understand
But every day you falter
I could grasp another hand.

Hints.

Commitment--it before you is.
You give up, and it gets let in.
You writhe against the painted net
that brings another lover yet
and wonder, silent as the wind
if it was you who let them in.
Contented, if you wished to be.
On fire, if your passion's free.
The glint inside the weary eye
leading to a new goodbye.
A repeat of an older day
you had a chance you'd never take.
Even though you chose it then,
it's now or never.
Take a hint.

Believe.

You believe in what you see
and don't put hope into your dreams,
but you believe that we're together free-
that I'm for you, and you for me.
Well I believe what can't be seen.
That doesn't mean you're made for me.
I rest my thoughts in dreams and seas,
and death will be what sets me free.

Cuccoon

I put on some of your old stuff
And wrapped us up, I wrapped us up
And in our sweet cuccoon we lie
Growing into what we'll find
I'm stuck, so stuck though
In these clothes meant for her.

I don't think you want to know
If I've been putting on a show
Or if I' trying very hard
To keep you on your toughest guard.

The how.

She drinks the pain away
With the bottle that she had
But then that man found out
And he was very sad
He told her to get rid of that
Or she'd be put out like a rat
Then he let us run amock
Cause she can't stop us, can't stop us.

Takeover.

I don't think you would understand
If you knew now the way I am
It's been a little different now
And you could not imagine how
The times have changed the little girl
Who used to wear her hair in curls
Though it was such hard work to do
She used to try to impress you
But now she's gone away she has
And I am left here in command.

smiles

I am, I am
I'm Sam I am's
If he were me
He'd see the sea
And Sam I am
Is not a fan
Of seeing me
The way I am

Help

I want to cry out,
Save me
But then you'd know the truth
And I can't have you learning
How I've hidden this from you.

I am a butterfly

Sleep tight, little friend
In your snuggly cuccoon
And you will wake up beautiful
Your wings a perfect blue
But you can't fly them straight, can you?
Your wings are crushed, and ruined
Crushed by the strings and fibers
Of the very thing that made them.

why is all the rum gone?

It seems I'm lapsing once again
And filled with doubts that I led in
I'm dying in the memory
Of times before I was set free
And wondering, again, again,
I'm wondering if I'll lose a friend
A part of you I've put in bars
And hidden keys and closed behind doors
So now I start the same old trend
Of using this a hand to lend
And you might be so down and blue
But I repeat this to keep safe you
I'll sleep in my huddle on the floor
In that old sweater that you never wore
And wait until the world makes sense.

Beach

Waves crash on the sand
As the sun rises before us
And it's beautiful in view
But it's dangerous behind us.

Angry Dishes

The dishes wave their metal limbs
And bang metallic heads
And they shout against each other
How they're living as though dead
And they clatter to the floor
And they rub in rusty chills
And they make themselves seem almost real
When really seeking thrills.

Think of me.

Sometimes, when I'm at home
I think about you all alone
And there's some thread of me that binds
The pieces of us as a prize.
Sometimes when I call your phone
I'd like to know you're not alone
Because I might have just made true
The dream you had of me and you.

My body is my temple
My love my self-esteem
The passions flowing through my mind
Keep all of my thoughts clean.

The earth that spins below us
Is spinning for us all
And it's the sun that's holding strong
To keep us from the fall.

Spiral.

The most elaborate card house is decorated with sweeps and spirals that lead to the moon
But we made it to the moon and I'm on my way back down from the highest tower
I could have touched the stars one day but gave it up to see the play
And tumbled with the cards to the very bottom, looking up the whole time
Looking back the whole time at what I'm losing, and I am losing
I'm losing a whole opportunity again, and again, and again
I'm losing hope, and dreams, and all sorts of make believes
I'm losing my mind, and I'm to blame
But falling is oh so pretty.

Birdy

Bye bye, little birdy
You learn and fly away
Bye bye, little birdy
You've learned to spread your wings
Bye bye, my little birdy
Fly on to better things.

You opened up your wings
And blocked the sun out in the sky
You earned yourself some looks
And I admit that you had mine
But bye bye, my little birdy
Now I'll watch you fly away
Bye bye, little birdy
Now my friend has left me prey.

Rain

Reach out and grab my hand, but I'll let you down again.
I know we've tried to walk that line but I'll reign myself back in.
I'm secretive in some ways and have yet to let you in
But open in some others that will burden me again.
I'd hold strong if I could have and I'll want for you tonight
But even if my pillow's stained I will have won the fight.
I'd have held you at an arms length if I thought that it would help
But torture is a friend to vicious people, when you yelp.
I'll revel in the cries, if it's only for my pain
Because one day I will learn from this,
and dry up all the rain.

Prison suicide.

Tattooed in the skin, but leaks
The treasure of the men you seek
The knife you pressed against the skin
Leads fire to another end
Climbing the electric fence
You'll meet the devil where he rents
An hour of your time, you've lost
To get an hour, for his cost
You hold yourself against the wall
But realize now you're soon to fall
And we'll call it a suicide
When really it was forced by pride
Temptation will not cause the crime
But those who give in walk the line
Your mistress will not wait for you
Unless your death is what you choose
And Satan can now help you out
If you give up this choice to doubt
Let go! and give way today
There's nothing else we'll hear you say.

Paper stone.

The stones tower before you
As the image in my eyes
The strength they bear in your mind
Is only weakened if you're blind.
I built them out of paper
And painted them with fear
And put it all together
With some earwax from your ears.
They seem so fit and proper
For that's what you're meant to think
But push them with a little force
They're down before you blink.

Discomfort.

Disappointment rings heavy in ears longing for reconnection
I find every thread of this web breaking as I toss in revery
I leapt with no boundaries before the sudden impulse
And fell with no fear at the mountain's peak
But now, I'm dismayed
At how absolutely fallen I've become.

You left your ears behind you when you entered our estate
We'll tar and feather these minds until they bleed and break
You leapt over the corpse of me; trapped within the gate
And fell before you reached the top of what was yet to be
I can't find comfort, now
In your arms.

Senseless

These spies are an atrocity
to revel in this imagery
and hold themselves away, yet here
and make their comments crystal clear.
They've found a way to hold me down,
though every moment brings a sound
a new day that I've yet to face
to put away the older lace
but wait -
I must be Senseless.

Cry

Cry alone in sweet, my friend.

Cry, as they will never shed.

The monster lands upon your cheek,

but when its ends we'll be complete.

Happier.

"HOLD ME."
Yet, she calls to you.
You'll hold her in the end.
And "FLEE!"
Though I have power still
I've honed it in on them.

The tears that you won't see me weep
Crash strongholds just as you.
The altar where you worship
Is protected by me still.

And from me as you wanted
though we never dared to say.
Without me, steady, conscience,
I will wipe away the stain.

Wicked

I wave my hands with powers forged of fingers drenched in blood
I'd tear apart my soul to save one wretched thought you hold
Then drag the empty shell of me across to hear your plea
And lose another part of me in fighting for you free.

The wicked only live to see the days upon the crest
But mistrust holds you closer to another so mistress
And all the power that I hold can't help me bear the pain
The goddess shines her light to those who writhe under the flame.

You smile with a passion that has yet to reach your eyes
The demons' truths inside you would not give away my lies
Deceit can feed the wretched as an ember to the flame
And every moment that you waste you fall back yet again.

The courage I once saw in you is weakness now I find
The power of your love is only strengthened when we die
I'll free the heightened mortal parts of beings sketched in stone
And blunt the sword, you yield to me. It's I who hold the throne.

Love.

I wonder sometimes if love is more than all that's said by love-sickened dreamers.
Expression is lost at the turn of a page, at the death of another believer.
Love
They say it's mystery, but found at certain glance
Love
They say is hard to find, but find it at a pass.
I'm lost to see that even when I hold fast I am fighting
And hard to hear that even though I love my love is biting
I try to hide when love comes near
But search in stars and writing
I pull away from easy fear
But run towards light when blinding
Love
I'm lost inside the fact
that everyone's deceitful
Love
I'm found inside the fact
that every home's a sequel.

Desperation.

NO
I hide
I walk
I stay
NO
And I
And you
And we
NO
And yet
And still
And why?
NO
But now
And still
Surprise.

Cracking as the clay will mold
And find its way to bend and fold
And smudge along the finger where
It leaves behind the dread of mere
Mortals as we called them then
Though more like us, if we let in
The prod that meets us at the gate
Where we look in, with no debate
We're hoping and at once we know
We're putting on a grander show
If we can hold ourselves in check
We'll find whats lost can now be fixed.

chamber piece.

Ringing of the telephone
and waiting for the lasting blow.
Goodbye--
and to the dear depart
I share with you this bit of heart,
ripped from the breast of someone near,
a person that you once called here.
True, now I see
you're wanting.

Tattoo.

You're a picture perfect painting
Of a love I never knew
You're a teasing friend; enamorate
The sweetest yet taboo
An artwork on my skin
And now the blood can set you in
A picture of
A loved one of
A lover
Of a friend.

Twisted as the games we play
A mind thrown into disarray
The garment, thrown onto the floor
The finger caught inside the door
A stain upon the blemished sheet
A place where we forgot to sweep
The blood that heals us from within
The wait that we've yet to begin
Waning as the dying sun
It's over and not one has won
Pivot and reach back again
You've let go of the fruitless kin
But leave your soul here
Breathless.

Empty Arms.

You wrap your arms round what you seek
and swear you've found the light and speak
of days when things will be just right,
and you won't let go in the night.
You whisper in that "wanting ear".
Don't listen for you'll want to hear,
but realize then you must have erred.
You're wrapped around the open air.

Appreciation.

I'll put a flower in your hair
And you might say you just don't care
But hold on, fast, the wind will blow
And you won't want to let it go
But blow away, and find a new
For it won't want for long for you
And find a new one, simple, true
Appreciates the journey through
Plants a seed along the way
And knows one day you'll let one stay
And love it as it stuck to you
But first is gone, the last a boon.

Freedom by the picket fence
A view of all that's happened since
You tore the heart right through the chest
That held you close against the breast
Focus on the estranged mind
We're headed towards a swift decline
Wanting to be let out ; freed
Leading on
And leaving me.

Imagine we were meant to be
Like lies: a step into a dream
Imagine we were meant to free
A heart inside the box of seas
And all the flowers disappear
And all the stars begin to clear
Pandora's screaming in your ear
And I'm amazed
You'd be left here.

The simple things
Larger than life
Against the faceless masses.
We: so lost
And so alone
Until that forecast passes.
When gray clouds clear
The birds will sing
Of love
And friends
And Now.
Even though we're torn and thrown
Our pieces come back down
Whole.
Again..

One.

Minds of Magic
Creative
Young
Gentle Pressure
To the Tongue
Potential
In the Steps You Take
A Dream
A Hope
Though it's All Fake.

Escape

Stuck in endless reverie
That love is not the life for me
Brimstone surrounds the lifeless;smote
And yet I bask within the smoke
I find small treasures in the musk
The deepest, darkest. Gone at dusk
I hold my treasure close to heart
I tear the prison walls apart
The gates of hell can't hold me in
When every smile's laced with sin
I'm holding fast, I'm pushing hard
While you wait on death's boulevard
The treasure pulses in my hand
But when it stops, alone I stand
The bodies of the river clean
The brimstone sparkles by the stream
And I've come out on top.

Sun.

The brightest star will disappear
and we'll be left the torch of fear.
Breathless at our trophy's feet
we laugh; we cry
at our defeat.

Stand up.

Even if I stand up straight
and hit my head on blades and pains
surround me in my moment now
I find somehow I'm happy, how
I ever let you stay behind
is driving in my sorry mind
and leaving me now stranded here
I find I'm glad to have your ear
and you can hold me closer.

Roulette

I'm not going--you're insane,
but lead me here and end the game.
With tricks and sticks
we'll throw the dice
Let's run; Let's fight
Let's Love Tonight.

Love Drug.

You might think it's just a fix,
But love and fire: bound to mix.
You wait for me--
I'll see it through.
Maybe I'm the thing for you.
Call it anger management,
but you're my sweet enamorate;
And all the breath you took away,
And all the walls I'll hold today,
And all the times I'll shake and seize,
I know it's worth your company.

There's no place.

I click my heels together
I want home, home
Home.
I find comfort in your arms
But I'm lost, if they're my
Own.
I want to hold you tighter
But what if you pull away?
I click my heels together,
And the next thing that you say
"There's no place like home, my dear,
it seems I've found it here."
You wrap your arms, much tighter
And my fears-they disappear.

MeMeYouTwoThreeNew.

The canvas bends and colors bleed together, dripping close
There's one beside the other heading towards the other boast
The brilliance of the three we look and find that one Stands Clear
A bright red dot - a perfect plot...but for the distance here
We're racing towards the end, our watercolors trailing free
We're cordial, together, but we fear we've yet to see
And our tendrils grasp for magic, but we're pushing back and forth
And although we're made of beauty, this bend could tear the three apart.

Tempted

That Girl it seems
Designed; displayed
This argument to heat
You catch me; tangled
In your web
Of all the dreams hidden
Tempted; true
I've fought-Though new
Is how I know
I could.

Family vs. Friends.

I cried today
How strange that seems
That happiness
Comes with crushed dreams
And family life
Could be different
Than social ties
And loving friends
I have forgotten
My parents
And when they were
So useful; and
How it seems
That I have aged
But I'm still her
Inside.

Nightmares.

The walls; painted
With misunderstandings
Coated in truths of hate
I wake sweating
The tears swift running
Across my barren face
I go into "her" room
And see what moments have forgot
Bring up those feelings
Have escaped
With life, and suppressed thought.

The Sun

It's strange to think
We could still be
Together
In the stars
And strange to think
That now I want
What before I had lost
So strange to think
You've circled me
For centuries
In space
And strange to think
That when time comes
You still might choose
Venus

Patience

I find you
Unnerving
To say the very least
And I wish
I'd find you pointless
So I wouldn't try to catch
Then slipping
Through my fingers
Is the time we never spent
And I wait
So very patient
For you to be my friend.